Hey wooly...

You learned something, and I learned something by your post...

You learned that you can say what is in your heart on this forum, and you will be received [without judgment].

I learned that you are an honest person, who is willing to expose himself for the sake of the truth.

Having walked the same road you are on; I learned many things, by experience, in the walk of this life... sometimes it is perilous, and sometimes it is sweet.

All I know is this: You are here now... and you have an open heart... God's prayer to you is evident: Soak all of it in, bud... bb