Wow, Bill. You just helped clear up something I'd been wondering about for weeks, almost since the first day of coming here.

I want to be here, I need to be here, I know I belong here. And I wanted to shout it from the rooftops. There was this funny feeling about sharing, and I thought it was me, my own reluctance to share this Gold I had found. hehe Something greater (God apparently!) was holding me back from sharing a link to this forum, over in my little Spirit Within forum. I had just reopened it around the same time I found you guys here. Weeks ago, I can't hardly believe how much has transpired such a short time!

I can't tell you how many times I'd think to myself, I really ought to share a link to the Melchizedek forum, to Mondo's forum, to SOTS forum....so my friends of olden years can see where else I am visiting. And each time, no kidding, I got a big stop sign feeling. So far I have only given three friends online a link here. I had some reservations with two of them. Now I know why. Thank you for saying something Bill....and God. I appreciate you clearing this up for me. I hear and I understand, and I will only share when you want me to.

I have mentioned this forum a few times in public, but never put a link, and I normally would do that but I realize now that God didn't want that to happen.

I'm trying hard not to try to *help* others unless I'm asked. It's an awful habit of mine though, and I fall into temptation to try to *deliver* others from evil. Thank you Bill~God for helping me make note of that, too.

This morning I checked in with my spirit friends and asked them about my meltdown yesterday, and what to do about certain forums/relationships. I will share with you here what I was told about this forum. To be here, to read it FIRST, every day!!!! To really pay attention here, and to share here too. Most of the forums I'm at I was told don't benefit me much to share myself in there, but it's okay to read. But the majority of my time would be well spent here at Melchizedek's. That's what I was told, and I tend to save the best for last every time, and I can't do that!!!! I run out of time, trying to get caught up here, there and everywhere. Even this morning, after being told to come here FIRST every day, what did I do? Came here LAST! I wrote all over the place at two others forums, where I wa probably wasting my time/energy. Sheesh, will I ever listen and surrender my will, to the Lord's?

Lord have mercy and patience with me, please. And you guys, too, please? I'll try and behave so I can learn and grow and become I AM.

I'm ridiculous sometimes, with my disobedience. Maybe tomorrow I will come here first and have breakfast with you lovely souls! I love you all. I feel so awesome when I am here.

Love,
Barb