It has been ten days since God transfigured me, July 12, 2008. WONDERFUL!!!! He asked me not to reveal it, at first, to anyone except for Bill and Annie, until several days ago when He said I could now share about it with all. The one thing He asked me to do when I share is to make sure it's clear this is about HIM, and what He did.....not me! I had very little to do in this whole thing of being transfigured, this is all God at work here, nothing I could do to help myself. The only thing, in fact, I had anything to do with was the time of day it would happen. The day was set and determined, although He had asked me for two days beforehand if I was ready to lay down my life for Him. When Saturday morning July 12th came, I knew it was going to be the day.

Before I tell you what happened, and what's happened in the meantime, I want to address what Bill so thoughtfully shared in this thread, for a description of what attributes to remember after transfiguration has occurred. I will put the ones that have happened to me so far in bold big type. I haven't experienced all of this, but the way Father told me was the cross was just the beginning point, more will come.


Transfiguration description...



Dumbstruck

Sea of forgetfulness [towards transgression and sin]

Bright aura

Spiritual birth pangs end

God begins to praise you [and vice-versa]

Undeserved

Oscillating cycles of light waves [with endless patterns]

Ethereal breath vapor

Change at the cellular level

Metamophosis [accompanied by pure gladness in disbelief]

Tingling sensation

Vibration on all frequencies

Burning in the chest area [the warm glow of true joy]

Self-examination becomes an ongoing source of witness [not for others - for YOU]

Agape consciousness

Total healing [in all areas: Mental, physical; spiritual]

Continual joy-sobbing [uncontrollable]

Face changing

Tabernacle thinking becomes reality [not theoretical any longer]

Beauty

Mandatory ascension review of pre-event signs

No fear

New outward dimensional awareness

No more you... at least not the OLD you

Sudden

No beliefs

Blind judgment [towards others]

Total freedom

Music

Personality remains

Lover of animals

Parental honour unspeakable

Golden testimony [with silver tongues]

Christ Jesus title given [Saviour Anointed]

Royal feeling of bliss [ancestral, tribal honour retained]

Hair stands strait up

Visions abound

Dream orgasms [all realms]

Awe

Bad personality traits vanish

Happens post-anger - earth shakes before change

Clean

Full

Always enough of everything, for anything

Wisdom that makes Einstein look like a deaf, dumb, and blind toddler [with autism]

Law of God becomes a tower of splendor [where it once was a prison]

Sanctuary of continual Epiphany

Thoughts of genuine genius [beyond the capability of man's brute reasoning]

Vast ideologies [God thoughts], accompanied by Spirit confirmations through blissful mindsets of radiant splendor

Peace, and contentment [heart-peace and satisfaction of life] - minus the love of [or the need for] money

Approval of men not necessary

Forfeiture of possessions not a problem [because you have found the happiness you searched for in acquiring them]

No person is a stranger

Previous gender, age, race, outward physical appearance, and social status are made irrelevant

Everything is holy

Unfathomable

Human ambition totally wiped out

Childlike innocence

One word repetition: WONDERFUL!


When this event happens, remember what I wrote here...


I will, and I do, Christ Bill, I do!!!


Here is my story of how I became the Light. For two days I was hearing Father ask me if I was ready to go to the cross and give up my life so I could receive true life. I was scared! I wasn't really ready, I didn't think I was good enough for anything like this to happen to me. A few days before it happened I even called Bill on the phone to talk about something else and the first thing I blurted out to him was "I am scared!" I can't even remember now what I was scared about, but it something that had happened and after we talked and he was so comforting and reasuring, I realized what I was scared about wasn't what I told him at all. I was scared to give up my life!

Then I talked with Annie Friday July 11th about some stuff going on, and I told her what God was asking me, to go to the cross and die. She comforted, strengthened and reassured me she would be with me every step of the way, she'd be there at the foot of the cross, and she told me it would not be painful at all, and not to be scared, she wouldn't let me go through this alone. She knew it would happen soon.

So the morning of Saturday July 12th came, and my husband left for a daylong motorcycle ride with friends, and I would have the house to myself all day long. I took my shower and heard God asking me if I was ready to go to the cross. Except this time it wasn't just Father's voice I heard speaking, it seemed like the whole Host of Heaven was also relaying this to me. I'd never heard anything like it! God~the Host said that after I sacrificed my life at the cross I would no longer have any anger, fear or shame, that it would change me evermore. God asked me two things. Would I be willing to judge, for Him? I said yes, if He wanted me to I would. God asked me then would I be willing to do evil, what other men might consider evil, if He required it of me? I had to think longer about that one, and then I realized that if God asked me to do anything, once I had died for Him, then yes I would be willing even to do evil, for Him, if he asked me to do it. I said yes. Then Father said I had to choose, whether I wanted to do this at the beginning of the day, before I did my Saturday housework, or after? And I had that to choose from, early or later. So I said I would do this first off, before I did anything else that day, I would go to the cross.

After my shower I put on my nightgown and laid on my bed, with my two dogs Max and Layna beside me. Layna laid next to me cuddling my left leg, while Max laid in the middle of the bed to my left. I closed my eyes and began to pray, I said the Lord's Prayer I think. And then I told God I was ready to go to the cross and give up my life, for Him.

I slowly lost all awareness of my physical body laying there and I felt myself walking on a pathway, with a cross made of wood placed on my shoulders. I knew God placed it there, too. I carried it only briefly, it was very heavy, and I didn't feel any pain or hear any voices, just God's voice. He spoke to me calmly and assuredly the whole time this event happened. When we got to the Hill He asked me to give Him the cross and He said it symbolized the sins of the world, the weight of the world. I gave it to Him, and in that moment I felt such relief, such gratitude, an enormous awareness of what the cross represented and that I was about to surrender my very life, and die on that cross. He put the cross straight up and thrust it into the ground solidly. Then He lifted me up in His hands and gently put me on the cross, so I was hanging there. I didn't feel anything until the crown of thorns was placed on my head, and even that wasn't painful, it just tingled somewhat. He told me He took my sacrifice and He took my life in exchange for transmuting the sins of the world which I had carried momentarily on that cross. As He said this everything went dark and there was no more awareness of anything, not even His voice. Just pitch black emptiness.

Then a moment later I saw bursts of golden light and He said to me I was His Son, Christ, and I was His Daughter, in whom He was well pleased. He asked me something and I can't remember what it was, but I said "I do" and He said "You are my Bride!" Which made me laugh and smile and I just felt so much joy. He told me then to look down, and I realized I was still on the cross, and He told me to look at Mary (Magdalene). I saw the golden light which had begun swirling in orbs clockwise in my mind, begin to grow and encompass her, then I realized she was the same as me! She was this same golden light I was only aware of, now. I never saw her as a human being, I saw her Light Being instead. She was not crying, she was radiating and was praising God and giving Him the glory. As I saw her joy I felt joy and Father told me that this gold light I was seeing was her, and was me, and was him.....was what I would always see in everyone....from now on. That I would know them all as myself. And I would no longer think of putting myself first, I would think of others first. I would no longer have any fear. I would no longer have any worry or anxiety for myself or others, knowing Father's Gold Light is the Life in All. He said I would not save anyone, He would do that, through me and the others that are also Christ. He said to give no thought for my own self any more, and to think of others and their wellbeing, for we are one. He showed me how He sees sin, it's a blot of blackness, almost like a void nothing rather than an actual thing, and He washed it away, He just cast that inky blot away from Him, and the golden Light is what remains, that He sees. He said that is how I would see sin now too, I would no longer regard it in anyone. I wouldn't even see it, only the Light in them!

I was so happy, so indescribably happy, and it didn't matter to me I had given up my life, because the Life I received, which is God's to give, was so much better than anything I could ever imagine!

In that realization I asked God if I could do something, I was so happy! I asked Him if I could wash His feet. And He said yes, and to my joy a huge pair of feet mystically appeared in front of me, with a jar of oil of some sort, and then a lacy handerchief, and I proceeded to wash God's feet! It had the most wonderful scent too, although I don't know what it was. I was enjoying giving God's feet a wash, so much! Then all of a sudden I realized I was washing Jesus's feet! And then Annie's (Mary Magdalene!). And I asked with them, with the Christ's feet, if I could massage them too, because I wanted to make them feel really good. Mary said yes, and I saw myself turning my hands this way and that to massage, as well as wash in the perfumed oil. And the thought came to me that what I did for her/him (Jesus/Mary M) I was doing this for all of the body of Christ, those who are and those who are coming into this rebirth.

Then I heard Father speak to me again and He said it was the nicest thing *I* had ever done. I think because it was the first thing *I* was doing, as my Christ self. hehe

Then the feet were gone and I was seeing color again, only this time it was a bright green light that was swirling in different patterns. It seemed to have a variating pattern of black in the center, but pulsating green light in patterns all around it, it morphed, it came in waves. And I knew it was healing light and love, because that is what green means to me, it's the heart. I felt it was almost over, the transifguration had happened and I was coming back to my normal body and reality. Which surprised me a little! I felt like a human being still! And I had some human body needs which were calling me, since I'd drank coffee earlier! I felt the coolness of the air conditioner wind on my legs again, and I was ready to get up. I thanked God for all He had done and I was so glad I had surrendered my life to Him and gone to the cross. It wasn't hard or painful or anything, Annie was right!

So I got up from the bed and was very dizzy and light headed, I had trouble walking at first. I looked at the clock and it was 8:45 a.m. when I laid down, it was now 9:15 a.m. when I got up, in my new life, which looked just like my old life! After, I went to the computer and I immediately wrote a long, detailed email to Annie, my dear friend, and since it was far too early to call her, I decided to call Bill since I figured he'd been up awhile already. God had told me to tell only them, until He told me I could share it with all. So I called Bill and blurted out my incredible journey to the cross and the transfiguration. And the whole time I was telling him this and that, he was going "Yes, yes, yeah, mmm hmmm, that's IT!" Very positive affirmations to hear after such an unforgettable experience!!!! It was like nothing I told him was a surprise at all. hehe I am so glad you understood beforehand, Bill, and for your work in preparing people for what to expect. Because religion sure does NOT prepare anyone for this experience. And new age does not either, because what I experienced was like Jesus, not the way they talk about Christ Consciousness, but actually being required to give up my life on that cross, and for what it does to you after!

And then I talked with Annie later, for three hours! We had such a good talk, and I felt so good knowing all of this was understood at least by she and Bill. It was so amazing. I felt like I was walking on clouds, after that, just a spiritual high that is hard to describe. It's surreal and yet real, because I am still very much a walking, talking, living human being! Simply put, it's my Mind and Perspective that got changed.

After....

God has had me be very quiet about the true story, but it was okay to share little bits and pieces, as He led me to the words to share with others this last week. Right after it happened and I talked with two of my closest friends, also members of the body of Christ according to our Father.....I did my housework! Seriously, you have to keep on being human with all the usual duties! When I put on the music to clean with, Classic Rock Rewind, the very song playing was Peter Gabriel's first band Genesis "That's All". hehehe So even after an epiphany/life-changing experience like this, God was still playing spirit DJ for me! LOL! I laughed and I cried and I laughed some more, over that. Many more songs with meaning came up and I'll share them some other time, I wrote them down and the list isn't with me right now.

Ever since this happened to me ten days ago I have an awareness of Christ that I never had before. It's not about Jesus, it's not about me (Barb), it's not about people who are or aren't Christed....it's about all of us....being one! We have this equality that I realize now, nobody needs "fixing" there isn't anything I myself can do for anyone, all will be redeemed too, like I was, by God Himself, when it's time. And since His Light is in all, He personally works on each one, one by one, and there's nothing I need to do, no more anxiety or worries or fears either. He told me I would not care any more what people think of me, and it's true! No more fear, no doubt, no worry. It's all so amazing!!! He really lifted those burdens off me, too.

In Bill's list I had highlighted all the attributes I'm either strongly aware of or accepting of as true, now. It was almost the whole entire list!

I have had a light aura from my shadow for many years now and I remarked on it that day to both Annie and Bill. It got brighter. When I walk my dogs and look at their shadows next to mine, they have regular shadows with no light glow around theirs. So my aura even encompassed my shadow, it's brighter around the head and shoulders, much like a halo.

I have had heart pains for over a week now that are different than my usual irregular heartbeat (I have a heart murmur). It feels like something new, now.

I didn't do anything to deserve this!!!! I was the same as ever in the days leading up to this. I was not a saint! I sinned!!!! I had so much fear and doubt in me, even the two days before this happened. I did not want to go to that cross, I was afraid, I was unwilling, but I knew I had to do it. I put my trust in God, which He's been asking me to do for over a month now.

Since it happened I haven't had any fear, doubt, anxiety or any issues....with anyone. I just have an intensified love for all. I am well provided for, I don't need anything for myself.

He told me not to share with all because He needed to do some things first. I got the green light to share last Friday night but I felt I was to wait awhile longer for others to share some things first. And I have seen several things, including Peter's beautiful scripture He shared, which meant so much to me personally and as a new Bride. I felt it was God's way of lovemaking, what Peter shared. It really touched me deeply, hearing that. I'd found that very same scripture using stichomancy (opening a book at "random" with spirit's help) around 3 months ago for a friend, and it certainly didn't mean hardly anything to me at that point! Yet now, 3 months later, that very same book in the Bible took on enormous meaning. God's love song!

I am still me, but I am much more than I was, now.

God told me to share this story here. That it was important for me to be a witness. God will bring each one of the many-membered elect body of Christ to the cross, to follow in Jesus's footsteps, and to become the sacrificial lamb. It is TRUTH. It is LIGHT. It is LOVE. When we surrender our fleshly carnal garments, we put on the body of Light, which is Christ. I am the Light.....and you are too.

I love you all very much.

Love,
Barb